So. I've learned something. Well, a few things, actually, but. First thing's first.




Trying to play the original Left 4 Dead game is really quite impossible once you've played L3ft 4 Dead 2's demo. Which I have. Multiple times.

It just doesn't have the same spark it used to, which I'm quite surprised about. I feared that L4D2 would not be anywhere near as good as what I've already played, so you could say that I'm pleasantly surprised about the development.







Another thing I've learned is honesty is apparently NOT always the best policy when trying to fill out applications. But then again, I suppose I should consider this a theory for now, as I've still not gotten a call back from anywhere I've applied to yet.

Why do I say this, though?

Well, I'm trying to get my life together. I quit high school at 16, and have been dicking around far more than I should, instead of trying to get my GED or something so I could get a job and get the fuck out of the house within a year after getting said job.

Now? I'm nearly 20, and I've never had a first job. I don't even have my driver's permit. You could say I'm pretty lazy and stupid, and I would wholeheartedly agree with you. I fucked my life up, and I'm trying to fix this.

My problem is that I NEED a job in order to start putting the pieces back where they belong. I need courses in order to get a GED, because I probably can't afford to constantly retake the tests because I bombed the math portion or something. My parents don't have money to pay for it. My grandparents can't shell out money for it, because my grandma lost her job before she could retire, and my granddad needs what little bit they might have for medical tests and possible cancer treatment. (And, as much as I'd rather not think about it... Funeral costs as well.)

On top of that, I'd much rather have an actual high school diploma, to try to bring some sort of pride to my family. But that costs quite a bit of money. How much? Try about 800+ dollars for online courses. I don't know how much to go to a night school or something for them, as I haven't been able to find one for adults.

And on top of THAT, the Texas law has been changed so that now, first time drivers under 25 CANNOT get their license without taking classes, whereas it used to be that so long as you were 18, you could just take the tests and be done with it. Classes cost money. A lot of money. That, again, no one in my family has.

Thus, the problems. I can't seem to get a job without an education, which is what I need a job FOR, for the most part.

Annnd thus, I've resorted to lying about my educational circumstances. Namely stating that I did graduate high school, etc. Either I'll get a job, or I won't. Clearly admitting I'm a redneck gets me nowhere anyway. What've I got left to lose?

Absolutely nothing.




I guess we'll see how this retardation goes.












On a few completely unrelated notes...

Microshaft pisses me off. They took my XBL Gold away 10 days earlier than they said (Expired, they said, on 11/17/09, but it REALLY expired 11/07/09.) but that's fixed now that I got a renewal.

MSN, however, refuses to work on my computer. It's done this before, after their stupid fucking MANDATORY updates for Windows Live Messenger, but I can't get it to work how I did last time. So unfortunately, I'm stuck with Windows Messenger. *gags*



Also, my favorite headphones decided to crap out on me. This depresses me, because the ones I have lying around are so horrible. The sound is SO unimpressive, I can't stand it. Sigh. I have to listen to music every day, even if there's nothing in particular I want to listen to, and not being able to hear everything that makes up that music honestly makes me want to break something. The ones I like cost a lot more than I have. Which is now a mere few cents. This month hates me so much, I just know it.



And. Final Fantasy VII is a fucking parasite. I finally got around to playing it (I know; I'm so fucking late in this) a few months ago, and it's grown on me, rather slowly. I honestly didn't think it would. Ah well. ...naturally, I already have a favorite yaoi pairing from it, too. ._.; Go figure, yeah?



Argh, I want l4d2 already! The 16th/17th needs to get her faster (midnight release ftw). Fuck you, weekend! YOU DON'T EXIST. GO AWAY. *grumbles and goes back to killing Tanks and Chargers with a Machete* (L4D2 is the only exception to this month hating me. *huggleluffs all fucking over *)



I need a bigger mp3 player. 4gigs is NOT cutting it. At all. Soooooooooooo many songs and videos I want on here, but so little room. But I can't buy a new one. I have to try and see if I can buy a laptop this year for birthday/christmas. It probably won't happen, but... Well. We'll see.